This is what I did yesterday :(
Log on my computer
Log onto Facebook
Check my email
Check my financial aid status
Research my fave celebrity crush who I'm really not supposed to be looking up anyways...
See that my crush has a new GIRLFRIEND who has many many many intimate looking photographs of him
Major FREAKOUTTTTTTTTT/Breakdown
CANT BREATHE, SO MAD, CONFUSED, HURT
(Like he is cheating on me but he doesn't even know me), Knowing that on the inside this is crazy to feel this way but still sooooo mad...
So then I research this girl and find out everything she has ever tweeted, thought, posted or said online...for like an hour
After much research on this new girlfriend I find out that all of these photographs are fake, PHOTOSHOPPED... I feel like a fool, a crazy, crazy fool.
By the time I had done all of this I had already had a major shift inside of me:
1. I decided for myself that my crushes crystal clean image was now shattered
2. I had decided that I didn't like this man anymore, I mean how could he choose HER!
3. I had passed MAJOR judgement on him as a person, man and Christian.
4. I had passed judgement on this girl I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW!
5. I had prayed to God to not let me like this guy anymore.
even as I type this now I think CRAZEEEEEE but it's true I did all of this. After realizing that these were all fakes of someone who has too much time on their hands I realized my mistakes.
How quick are we to pass judgement? We are not called to judge others... How quick are we to turncoat? How quick are we to pray to God for crazy things and not for wisdom, discernment, his will in our lives etc.? How quick are we to do things we know we are not supposed to? How quick are we to act on our emotions? How quick are we to be unwise? How quick are we to waste time on trivial matters?
The ONLY thing we need to be quick about is dying to ourselves and LIVING in the Lord....
#stillaworkinprogress
