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"Who am I?" Posts

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      SO the Lord has put on my heart to do some “Who am I’s” occasionally. I'm not sure if anyone else does these or thinks of these. I would like to think it is Me and God's novel idea but he could be talking to other women about it too :) What he explained to me is that I must write a list of Who am I characteristics and then to pick a few and write more in depth about them. This ALONE has been LIFE SHAKING! It is encouraging me to really look at the corners and recesses of my life about who I am, where I am going and who I want to be. I just freeflow and write who am I? …

       This lists includes things I would like to be in the future because I once heard a great quote… “Who you are going to be, you are becoming now” meaning you are not going to just wake up an honest person one day if you are lying right now, you are not going to wake up a skinny chick if you are eating the entire sleeve of Oreos right now (working on this one :)… and so on. Whatever you are practicing now, you will likely become, somewhere there has to be a mental shift and we all know we are transformed by the renewing of our minds…

Who am I? 4/6/13

-          A wife, a mother, a lover of all people, a kind mother, a generous person, a loving individual, unwavering in my belief in Christ, a prayer warrior, a bible reading woman, a woman who follows what the Lord tells her to do, an honest woman, a kind woman, a reading woman, an honorable woman, a nonjudgmental woman, a woman who speaks up for herself, a thoughtful woman, a woman, a confident woman, a daughter of the most high, God’s princess, God’s daughter.

• þ  A non-judgmental person – This does not mean that I condone my own sin or the sin of others, it just means that I do not judge. The bible says judge not lest you be judged. I do not condemn others, I realize that we all have fallen short of the glory of the Lord. I give others grace and I smile. I do not crucify others, I let them live their lives in what I hope is peace and speak up only when God’s tells me to. 

• þ  A woman who speaks up for herself- She thinks carefully and does not let people run all over her without speaking the truth. She speaks the truth to negate the lies. She doesn’t make up or conjure external lies to prove a point or add to her “stories”. She is respectful even when she is not being respected. Her accountability is to God and God alone. She honors the Lord in all she does including her appearance, her words, her actions, her thoughts, and her descriptions. She speaks life and truth even to herself. She does not allow her inner tape to play unless it is in agreement with the word of God.
  
  
• þ  A confident woman- She is NOT prideful. She is NOT prideful. She is NOT prideful. She is NOT prideful. She is NOT prideful. She is NOT prideful. She is NOT prideful. (I repeated that because it is easy to fall into, but NOT up in here devil!) 
  She understands that she is a WOMAN. She is beautiful, she is important, she is valuable to the kingdom, she understands her value, she understands her call, she will do anything to protect that value, she understands the importance of being in communion with God, she knows that all good things come from the Lord. And he has chosen her.
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  She knows that her beauty is on the inside and this is what people will be most attracted to. She knows that God has a plan for her. She knows that the Holy Spirit lives inside of her and reveals the plans of God on her heart and helps protect her from the plans of the enemy. She takes no pride in anything for she knows it all comes from God. She is God’s and he is hers.

One Church International

After leaving Houston I was looking for a new, young, BIBLE BASED, Holy Spirit filled atmosphere to worship and learn in Los Angeles. I didn't think I would have too much luck but alas I have. At first I was turned off that the church was in Hollywood and that celebs frequented it but I decided to go and boyyyy was I wrong. Service was aaaaaaaamazing and I felt right at home. These people love Jesus, and they dress up too lol. Everyone was looking  their own version of fly. Anyways God is real and great



Check them out:  http://onechurchla.org

Marriage, My Idol: Loving Love more than God

http://beggarsdaughter.com/marriage-my-idol/#comment-2043

Marriage, My Idol: Loving Love more than God

• Posted on February 22, 2013 
• in Purity 
• by Jessica

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“Jessica, you could be single for the rest of your life.”  I glared at my friend.  She had a lot of nerve making such a statement.  ”No!  I meant it as a compliment.  You are just a very strong woman.”

Strong or no.  I had no intentions of being single for the rest of my life.  In fact, my plan was to be married within the next five years.  I was 18.  I am now 27.  So much for that five year plan.  At 23, I joked with a friend, “How old do you think someone should be before they write a book on singleness?”  Her response: “25, at least.” I could have written it two years ago.

Throughout the years, my attitude toward my own singleness has fluctuated from contentment to sheer panic, from half-hearted trust to anger.  Was I supposed to want this or not?  How long, exactly, did God expect me to wait.  If it was such a good thing, such a ‘gift’ then why on earth was God not letting me have it?  That’s just stupid.

As I neared my 21st birthday, my heart went into a frenzy.  Marriage was not on the horizon, so I started painting my own horizon.  Every single man in my life became a potential husband.  I would plan out our lives together, and then I would be happy.  If I could see it working, God was good; life was good; I was happy.  Then, this funny thing started happening.

They all started getting married– and not to me.  Salt in an already bleeding wound.

I couldn’t wrap my mind around it.  Why wasn’t God answering this desire of my heart?  It was a good desire.  Marriage is a good thing.  I wanted to be married; why was this so difficult?

Then the question came, “Why do you want it?”

Marriage might be a great thing, but if I want it for the wrong reasons, it won’t accomplish its intended ends.

When I first asked myself that question, I had to be honest:  I wanted marriage because I figured it was the best way to deal with my struggles.  I wanted marriage to fix only what God can, because I knew God’s way would hurt.  I wanted a quick fix, a sensible fix- just give me a man, and then I won’t deal with all of these insecurities; I won’t have to worry about all of this anger.  It will just be a bed of dark chocolate and tulips (I can’t stand roses).

I had lifted marriage to a place above God.  It was more important than the work He was doing in my life.  It was the foundation of all my hope and happiness, and I was convinced it must be the key to my Godliness.  That’s when I face-planted on this gem:

“For His divine power has bestowed upon us all things that [are requisite and suited] to life and godliness, through the [full, personal] knowledge of Him Who called us by and to His own glory and excellence (virtue).” (2 Peter 1:3- Amplified)

Where to start?

God has given me everything I need for life and for godliness, but it doesn’t say through marriage. I have everything I need for life and godliness through the full and personal knowledge of Christ.  This means, and not meaning to be cliche here, that I should be pursuing Christ.  My successful navigation of life depends on my knowledge of Him not my tax filing status.

So is wanting marriage wrong?

Here’s where the confusion came for me and for so many others.  As Christian women we are fed so many different takes on how we should approach and anticipate marriage.  It’s a good thing, but we’re told not to pursue it.  We’re supposed to just let it happen.

For some of us, we might be fairly convinced that we have a greater chance of being struck by lightning on a sunny day.

How do we balance a desire to grow in Christ with a desire for marriage?

They aren’t meant to be competing desires.  It’s not as if you desire one at the exclusion of the other.  In fact, the problem is, for many of us, we have desired marriage at the exclusion of Christ.  Then, we swing back to the other side and desire Christ at the exclusion of marriage.  We live our lives in this back-and-forth pendulum pattern– unstable, moody, directionless, inconsistent (sound like you?).

I found my own balance (not saying I don’t lose it every now and then, but I found it), through a series of three events.

1.  I read Eric and Leslie Ludy’s book, Meet Mr. Smith.  I recommend this book to pretty much every girl who comes to me with questions about sex before marriage and dating.  It is one of the most beautiful, PG rated guides to human sexuality that I have ever read.  Most of them, even the Christian ones, read like a porn site.  This one is different- emphasizing matters of the heart in such a powerful way that it led me to…

2. I gave up marriage for one year.  Obviously, this is not a recommended course of action for married women, but it is one that I, as a single woman, have never regretted.  Right before my 21st birthday, I decided that I would ‘kill’ the dream of being married by 22.  I wouldn’t just let it die; I, myself, was going to kill it.  I decided that I would not date or even entertain the idea of marrying a man for the next year.  It was probably one of the best decisions I have ever made.  It taught me the art of guarding my heart.

3.  I figured out what marriage really was.  I say that now with all the chutzpah of a single woman; check back with me once I’m married.  What I mean is, I put marriage in its place.  I prayed, studied, and finally sat down and wrote out my own life purpose statement, and then carried that over and applied it to marriage.  I have it written down in one of my journals.  The basic idea is this:

I am placed on this earth for a divine eternal purpose- to serve both the lost and the church.  At any given point, if I am following God, I will be in the best place for that task to be accomplished.  When there comes a time that my ability to minister is better done within a marriage, then I can trust that God will bring that to pass.  He will always have me in the best place I can serve Him.  My job is to be faithful to serve wherever He has me.

If marriage is a struggle for you.  If you want it maybe a little too passionately, I would encourage you to sit down with the Lover of Your Soul and ask Him to help you put marriage in its place.  Like sex, marriage is a good Godly desire, but only when tempered by God Himself.

Ignore negativity

Negativity only follows people that are going places

Have you ever wondered why sometimes it seems that so many people are against what you're trying to do? Or it seems like no on wants to help you accomplish your goals. That's because you have so much to offer the world that it literally intimidates others when they see your drive, and your potential together.It scares them because it forces them to step up their game and get more out of life. So instead of being inspired many would rather get angry or jealous and try to tear you down or discourage you. They know that if they can tear you down then they get to rest in mediocrity for the rest of their days.Well guess what? You can't dim your light just because it's getting too bright for those around you. Give them some sunglasses if you need to, but keep on shining. Let the negativity fuel you because it's a sign that where you're going is somewhere worth going. Don't let their rudeness towards you make you bitter and angry like they are. Instead let it motivate you and push you harder. Step it up and do even more!!If they're going to watch you and hate then you might as well give them something good to talk about!!-Tony A. Gaskins Jr.

God is good

I'm extra busy now, but will be posting again soon! Sit tight

Fasting and prayer

You are what you eat literally and spiritually! What are you letting feed you? You cant just turn on the TV and let any old thing linger in your space, time and mind. What are you putting into you ears, mind, eyes, and body? Are you sleeping around with people who shouldn't be entering your body? Are you eating bad foods? (guilty of this one) Are you watching stuff you know you shouldn't be watching? Are you listening to things you know you shouldn't? (music, people, comedians, podcast that are negative,/have a negative effect on you etc. )

This is all dangerous and we cant take it lightly. You are responsible for your spirit.

Respect your spirit enough to allow it time to download and meet God. 

Most people are concerned with the things that don't really matter and we all can get that way...but we must remeber the important things and the most important relationship you will have is with God! #getitright The kingdom of God is not for lazy people, we must get it together and GO for whatever God has for you!
Amen